When I am having strong feelings about somthing and I need an outlet to express myself, it is often through artistic means. In the past it has been drawing, singing, and writing. Lately it has been film photography, and still life photos in particular.
My dad was a creative person. I have drawings of his from when he was a teenager that show he not only felt strongly about something in particular when he drew it, but it also showed he had a talent for expressing himself through art. He also took photos constantly up until he passed away.
Therefore, when I was feeling somewhat down about my father several weeks ago, it of course manifested itself in my photography. I felt an urgency almost, to abate these feelings, to get them off my back. Almost like that searing coldness you feel after a hot grease burns your hand. You rush to relieve it in anyway possible.
I set up my Mamiya 645 Pro on a tripod with a shutter release cable, and I frantically looked around the house for items that would express what I was feeling.
The compositions weren’t my best. There was too much empty space because the items I chose were pretty small and I couldn’t come in too close with my 80mm Sekor lens. It doesn’t matter though.
Photography doesn’t always have to end with a work of art. Just like any art form, sometimes it simply serves as a way of expression.
In the photo I included my fathers wristwatch, bracelet, a locket he bought for my mother with their anniversary engraved into it, and his prayer card from one of the worst days of my life. I paired them with a couple other items that helped me to express my feelings of loss, and time passing in spite.
When someone you love passes away and is suddenly no longer in your life, you’re left with remnants of their life. Remnants of who they once were. Its strange to think of this irony that when you die you can’t take things with you, but you do leave them behind, and sometimes they live on for you taking on a whole different value.
How do you express yourself? Let me know in the comments.
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